Note to self

Cool link

hateme2morrow — Mon, 20 Nov 2006 03:41:59 +0000

I just have to post this.

I was searching for downloadable mp3s in the web, and I came across this site, which is tottally cool.

Go checck it yourself!

Open House Chot

hateme2morrow — Mon, 20 Nov 2006 02:44:50 +0000

Yesterday was a bittersweet day for me personally. Here’s how…

I went to a friend’s open house. We are quite close, even-though he is one year my junior. We played hockey together, so a lil’ misunderstanding was inevitable, but nothing was serious. I was never been to his home, a fact that he couldn’t quite accept. So after an earlier arrangements, another friend picked me up from my room to the open house. We survived severe traffic jam, which almost standstill. Anyway we arrived at the destination almost an hour later, in a heavy downpour.

There was some people from his work there and a girl who used to play in the girls team, who came along with her brand new boyfriend. Since the others (the whole hockey team) promised to come, me and my friend decided to stick around until the morons came. So there was me, sitting bored, waiting for them. Then suddenly a down syndrome girl came to the host, and I was quite taken aback, because never in my life I realize that he has a DS sister. I played it cool, after all I had a distant relative who have the DS. I never asked about the sister, because I know, sympathy is the last thing he want from me.

It must be really hard to have a DS family member. I can’t even imagine having a DS family. It will be a lifelong commitment, a responsible you should bear in sickness and heath. I do wish him nothing but a fell throttle encouragement.

Anyway, the whole hockey clan came, along with the coach and his family, and some old friends. We patched things up, shared stories and laughter. It was a joyous moment. Next year, we will definitely come back!

On the other thing, we lost in our hockey league semi finals to bunch of pre pubecent under-18 small dicked kids. It was pure luck for them.

Hate Me

hateme2morrow — Fri, 17 Nov 2006 06:59:44 +0000

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There’s a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? it is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you

~Blue October

Stupid Radio Show.

hateme2morrow — Mon, 13 Nov 2006 02:29:49 +0000

I’m now at the engineering department computer lab, which I seldomly visit, because I only do most of my online ‘thing’ at biotech computer lab, but today the key/door keeper decided to come late resulting me having to postpone today’s ‘to do/download online thingy’. So here am I , sitting in the sub zero air conditioned room with my Walkman handphone earbud stucked in my waxfull ears. As usual I tuned in Hitz.fm, a local english language radio station. The segment aired now is “The Morning Crew” – basically a morning radio show, with two wacky radio DJ – Rudy and JJ (however Rudy is MIA since last week, MC kot..). Today’s theme is calmness, in respect to all form fivers who will face the dreadful SPM exams tomorrow. At one time I laughed out loud (LOL) when a listener called in and describing his problem with his best-friend (probably gay-friend) and JJ’s trying his best to reconcile their ~~gayness~~ friendship. JJ told the two friends to imagine that they are riding horses on a beach, to which one of the freinds shouted, I’m not gay, which was so funny. And now the music played is Cristina Aguilera’s Beautiful, which is the anthem of gay people around the world. Nuff said.

I scratched my forearm in my team’s final KL hockey league match. We won by the way, and the avulsion’s still hurt like bitch. I should have known the turf in the KL stadium is flash eatingly sharp. And one of my team mate was injured when he was smacked ringht in the chest with them strong Indian player’s sholder, and he couldn’t stand after that to which me and some friends had to lift him out of the pitch, and then he coughed out blood, and then I texted my absent coach about the game, and he called me back to get the injured player to the varsity clinic, and I had to call him and ordered him to go to the clinic and he asked me if I can bring him to the clinic, and I had to borrow my friend’s bike and fetch him and ride to the clinic at a chilly 1am nightly air, and I had to wait for him when he was treated by the doctor, and the doctor said nothing’s wrong, and later we headed to the Highway to watch Manchester United game, which the team beat the Blackburn Rovers 1-0. Long stories, I know. And my arm still hurts.

On Sunday, I went to my friends’ open house, which save a lot of lunch/dinner money. And Arsenal beat Liverpool 3-0 which I do not really care because both teams are losers.

Hoping for a cool week ahead.

Hello world!

hateme2morrow — Thu, 09 Nov 2006 07:30:24 +0000

Blogging is addictive. I have been blogging everyday since last August in my blogger blog (here), but since Blogger decided to turn ass, I decided to switch blog site. At first, the Blogger site was a joy to write to, but lately (in the past month precisely) hours long worth of brain juicing and typing turned ash when Blogger failed to publish the posts.

Enough about Blogger, let’s focus about ME. Let’s get down to business!

It’s the usual shitty day for me. Living aimlessly like a headless chicken. I am seriously considering dumping my girlfriend. The person who was the joy of my life has turned into a pain in the ass woman, like other women in the world (excluding my mum of course). I just can’t take it anymore. I don’t like to fight, because when I fight, it will be hell.

Right now I’m waiting for the balance of my pay, and once I get it, I will start looking for rent house/room. I hope everything will turn smoothly, because I can’t afford any hiccups. Then I HAVE to look for job. Any kind of job (that pays well). Labour, teacher, bartender, male escort, whatever, as long as I can pay the bills.

I’m so hoping thet this wordpress thing will not turn up like another blogger experience.

A new day has arrived indeed.